“It’s not whether God has an incredible plan and purpose for your life, it’s whether you’re willing to step into that incredible plan and purpose for your life.”Oh my goodness.
I just got home from an Elevate night at Hillsong BNE and holy shmokes, I’m shook (in the best way).
JD from Hillsong United flew up from Sydney and was guest speaker. First thoughts: (1) he’s hilarious; (2) he looks like a Caucasian version of Steve Aioki.
He shared three major points:
Learn the art of the unknown
Learn the art of being comfortable in your own skin
Learn the art of surrender
Now, disclaimer: I feel like I’ve come a long way in the last three years in terms of my faithfulness and putting Jesus at the centre of everything and not knowing what crazy adventure He’ll take me on. And you know, I’m honestly ok with not knowing. But dang, I feel like tonight was one of those moments I’ve been shaken up, stirred, tossed around and woken up to what kind of life He is really offering us.
About midway through his sharing, JD said something so great: “God is not looking for flawless - he’s just looking for someone with the heart for it. God just wants your heart. God’s call doesn’t expire!”
S h o t s. F i r e d.
How true is that though, right? So often we aim for flawless. Clean. Crisp. Perfect even. But God works best with broken, does he not? Hearts that have been broken, but know whom it is whose heart was first broken. Hearts that are aware of their brokenness, their unworthiness, their weakness - yet still say, fiat - not despite this, but because of it. We must not (and cannot) wait until our hearts are perfected, because then we would never start.
Mother Teresa →
May God break my heart so completely that the whole world falls in.
He shared about contemplating Jesus and what he was going through during his Passion. In the garden, it is so clear he did not want to do what His Father was asking of him - I mean, giving up his life is a pretty big deal - but wow, still he sees the great and perfect plan and purpose for his life.
Luke 22:42 →
Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me; yet, not my will but yours be done.
God often speaks to me through images and when JD shared that scripture, I got this beautiful image of me taking up the cross with Jesus on the way to Calvary and him distinctly inviting me, “Take up my cross with me.” What an invitation! (terrifying, but challenge accepted yo!)
Oftentimes I’m just baffled with what God asks me to do. Mostly when I’m baffled I just ask him why he would choose little old me to do this work. Why entrust me with such big things when I can’t even be faithful in the little things?
“It doesn’t all make sense but you just need to trust God. If you’ve got a heart after God and are willing, that’s all God wants.”
A lot of my time in prayer is me saying, “Lord I’m not worthy that you should enter under my roof” – it honestly just doesn’t make sense to me sometimes. It doesn’t make sense how much responsibility he’s placed in my hands, how much influence and how much love and how much power and healing and goodness he allows to work through me.
Jer 1:5 →
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.
But then I have moments like tonight where I’m encouraged to step into the unknown and into his love. Because whether I like it or not, I am chosen and set apart. And I realise I have nothing to lose because all I have is my heart. And my heart is all he wants.
Not my will, but yours! Father may that forever be my prayer.